Mushroom

The Change

maybe i've got it wrong
'cause maybe i'm still alone
i can't pretend i still believe in you
when i can count the tears that fall

i couldn't see from where you flew to me
so what was i to do?

and in a bleeding heart's embrace
i traced the tear streams down your face
so i could know them one by one
lest i should leave some work undone

i learned to pray for just one thing
that i may witness you in wings
i saw an angel there that day
and then i watched her fly away

maybe i can't believe
that maybe you couldn't see
that angel's more than just a word
that i would speak to calm your eyes

i planted flowers 'round your door
so you would never need for more

and in a bleeding heart's embrace
i traced the tear streams down your face
so i could know them one by one
lest i should leave some work undone

i learned to pray for just one thing
that i may witness you in wings
i saw an angel there that day
and then i watched her fly away

vera, i've been so down
while you are nowhere to be found
i know you'd never tell me why
i only came back here to cry

and all along
i was sure you knew
how bad i needed you

beyond me
there's only
a shadow
with it's head down

i planted flowers 'round your door
so you would never need for more

and in a bleeding heart's embrace
i traced the tear streams down your face
so i could know them one by one
lest i should leave some work undone

i learned to pray for just one thing
that i may witness you in wings
i saw an angel there that day
and then i watched her fly away


No Directions

wha'd'you run away for?                                   head down, pocket full of lies
wha'd'you run away for?                                   dismiss what's before your eyes
are you afraid you're not the only one?                   hear me, offer no reply
wha'd'you run away for?                                   can't you try to think about it, think about it?
wha'd'you run away for?                                   it wouldn't hurt to think about it, think about it
do you really think you won't be back around?

why are you still crying?                                 crawling far above the sky
why are you still crying?                                 mind that makes the heart deny
you know you've really known it all along                 trading memories for pride
why are you still crying?                                 you can't get away from it, away from it
why are you still crying?                                 you can't get away, there's no escape from it
don't you think you should take a break and breathe?

is it almost time now?                                    bury all that's left to save
is it almost time now?                                    welcome comfort in a cage
tell me what you gain from how you play?                  always fearful of a change
don't you think it's time now?                            the only thing to do is do something about it
don't you think it's time now?                            it's really past the time to do something about it
i can see your shadow shivering

can you see now that there's nothing to hold you down?    wandering
we are only beginning to wake from a dream                wondering
you're not alone, you're not to blame                     take your time
you are alive and it's slipping away from you             take it in
there's always been so much to confuse                    clear your mind
well, you've got no time to lose                          ask yourself
                                                          what you see

further, brighter, wider                                  wandering
more than you will ever see                               wondering
just a shadow chasing a low setting sun                   reaching out
and when you felt it long ago                             reaching in
you never thought you would forget so easily              don't hold on
if only you could wander back there                       let it be
searching your mind endlessly                             walk alone
reach for the form you see                                walk with me
don't turn away from it                                   stay in motion

too many tear drops will cover your eyes
all you see is all you do
all you know enters through you

too many tear drops will cover your eyes
watch it unfold , watch it undone
no yesterdays, no days to come


Lament

i'd like to know what makes it so that history must repeat
don't you think it owes a debt to all humanity?

don't you think we've had enough direction from the wise?
to prove we may not see the daywhen pain is pushed aside?

as we all wonder which way we should go
time is no healer, it won't let you know

as we all squander the lives we could lead
time has condemned usto beg to our knees

i'd like to know what makes it so that words can disappear
and circumvent what's being said before you even hear

as we all wait for the seasons to change
witness the tears on the face of the aged

as we all wait for our day in the sun
burning our memories while time is undone

and when the truth no longer refrains
and all the angels cry out in pain
in one last song to save a soul that only knows to grieve

there'll be no words to say, your heart will not betray
there'll only be a tear that cannot fall

i'd like to know what makes it so that life befalls for free
still every day we're forced to pay to save from suffering

as we all lament the things we can't know
searching for secrets 'midst those down below

as we all tremble before our own love
waiting for answers to fall from above


Labyrinth

i can lie no more about how i feel
or if i even feel at all

i'm not sure if i've gone farther back from than where i used to be
i used to know myself

i'm trying hard to greet this with an open soul
but i cannot find one inside

in this constant changing, inhibiting sight
i'm finding nothing left to hide

it's overwhelming
and nothing just the same
lost in myself again

i would love to say
you're still the center of my pain

i'm not really sure what it all was worth
if it's only left this emptiness inside

it's contradicting and in me just the same
lost in myself again

i keep losing sight of you
i'm just running 'round and 'round
i have never seen an end

opening door after door in endless fucking corridors
just to stand where i have stood before

baffled by the illusion
the only thing i understand
is each step takes me back where i began
lost in myself again


Drift

the stars are way too high to reach
the stars are way too high
but i watch them as they're burning out my eyes

the moon will never come again
the moon is gone for good
it gave us all it could and just gave up

can you feel the cold that's sinking in?
it's gonna freeze-lock everything but time!

i feel your hands inside of me
i feel you letting go
i'm falling in a hole within myself

it's taking over me again
i feel it coming on
i'd rest if i could only close my eyes

can you hear me as i beg for you?
i'm singing you the only song i know

aahhhhhhhhh....

back and forth (it's never ending)
how can i save anything?
just a thought, you could open your eyes

lie before me, i am gone
the heart is gone, the flesh lives on
all at once it's nothing but a dream

aahhhhhhhhh....

the wind will carry you away
but you'll come back around
to spread the lies you've learned along the way

if this has to kill me, i don't mind
i haven't lived a day since you've been gone

aahhhhhhhhh....


Mara

of no consequence
was all that you said
shaking your cup to the sky

longing for scenery
you tore down the bridge
you could cross when the river ran dry

then dying of thirst
you reached for the first
girl with the tear in her eye

and propping her up
you raise up your cup
to catch all the tears that she cries

and she scorns what you do
while she drinks from it with you

did you hear her name long ago
whispered in a draft through your window?
was her body's promise divine?

the rainbow's broken
the overrunning wine
is flooding your mind

just a one ship fleet
on an endless sea
with a sigh in its sail
sewn from soiled sheets

shrugging your shoulders
you turn from a world
whose loneliness left it in ruin

but you never once asked
any stranger that passed
for his name, or how he was doing

then you throw down your cross
to reach for your savior
a girl with a light in her eye

and your guardian weeps
as she sings you to sleep
with the words of a lost lullaby

that your mother sang to you
only it's not the same tune

did you see her face long ago
watching over you through your window?
was her inspiration divine?
the rainbow's broken
the confusion in your mind
is flooding her eyes

lady of the rose
oh, before you go
please won't you sing for me
one more song tonight?




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©2007 Joseph Andrew Thompson
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